Sometimes death takes our loved ones far too early and we’re left to try to live in their absence.
Former Malaysian actress Tracey Lee was left devastated when Ben Goi, her husband and son of Singaporean tycoon “Popiah King” Sam Goi, suddenly passed away after a brain haemorrhage caused by a stroke which happened in Kuala Lumpur last month (3 Feb). He passed away at the relatively young age of 43, with his only son’s first birthday mere days before his tragic departure.
The 33-year-old widow recently took to Instagram to express her grief, pouring her heart out in a heartbreaking post. Accompanied by a video collage of happy memories the couple had shared in the past, Tracey shares how much she misses her husband.
“It’s been a month… I’m still trying to get used to living without you. This is the longest that you’ve been away from me. Whenever you travelled in the past, I would look continuously at the phone, awaiting your messages. Now, I can only pen down my words to you in a diary.”
She also talks about the void he’s left in the household.
“Every night, I miss your familiar snoring, and the warmth of your hands when I’m cold. When the baby’s crying in the night, his father is not there to cradle him. Your car doesn’t pull into the house at night and the rooms do not smell of you. When I’m sad, I cannot have the comfort of your arms.”
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People always post their best moments here for likes but what about quarrels and disagreements? We all know marriage is no fairytale and we struggle when we transit from married life to having kids. But still i thank God for teaching me to be understanding and submissive. Now that our lives have become one, let’s continue to fill each other with love as we learn to count our blessings. Truly accept your loved ones for who they are is a way to sustain a relationship and I know it’s not easy but I’m grateful and glad that we are learning and getting better at it. Happy 1st anniversary baby 💕@bkngoi #countyourBlessing #GodMercies #GodBlessing #tracyleemeileng #FirstAnniversary
She adds, “Hubby, I miss your bear hug. I want my Aladdin.”
Perhaps the most tragic part of her tribute is their son’s reaction to his absence, where she described what happened. “This morning, I showed him a photo of you hugging him and he pointed at you and said ‘daddy’. He called out to you again, did you hear it?”
She concludes her dedication with a declaration of resilience and courage, refusing to give in to the despair.
“Whenever I feel the tears coming, I’ll look at videos of you, listen to your voice, and remind myself to not be sad because God is looking after us and has never abandoned us.”
“He gives power to those who are tired and worn out, and strength to the weak.”
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一个月了 。。。我还在努力适应着没有你的日子。这一次是你不在我身边最久的一次 … 以前你出国我总会不断看电话 期待着讯息铃声响起，但现在也只能把想对你说的话写成日记 每个晚上少了那熟悉的打呼声 再冷也感受不到那厚实温暖的双手 半夜孩子哭 没有爸爸抱 傍晚没有你车声回来 房间没有你香水味道 难过也没有你的肩膀可以依靠 老公 我想念你的 bear hug. 我要我的阿拉丁 今早让孩子看你抱他的照片 ，他拍打的说 ：爸爸 他再次叫你了 你听到了吗 我拒绝活在悲伤里 所以每当眼泪泛起时 我就会看有你的视频 听你的声音 然后提醒自己 不要难过 上帝在照顾你 且不曾离弃我们 祂说：‘疲乏的，他赐能力。软弱的，他加力量。那等候耶和华的，必重新得力。他们必如鹰展翅上腾，他们奔跑却不困倦，行走却不疲乏。 #beStill
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